So Much Closer

So,

I've lost ten pounds and I found these shorts I bought last summer. they were about two sizes too small, but they were so adorable and I seem to be always on a diet or a weight loss journey of some sort. Well, last week my boyfriend and I were going out and I decided to try them on with no idea in my mind that they would fit. (they are a 17) When I put them on they were about a size or two too big (:
I'm so excited. My size 19's wont stay up at all anymore and they look so unflattering so my favorite pair of shorts must retire.
Last Thursday we had went to dinner, I was so tipsy. We went into Gabe's just to brows around because everything in the mall was closed. I pulled a pair of 13/14 dollhouse skinny jeans off the rack they were so cute. I tried them on and they fit. I don't think I've ever wore a 13/14 let a lone them be skinny jeans. Its so much motivation. I love it. I'm defiantly not doing it the healthy way. I threw up everything except breakfast and a bowl of fruit today, but how else can I do this? I tried the healthy way, but it isn't fast enough. So no/low carbs and only eating/keeping down breakfast. I also drink a lot of water. I haven't been on a scale in about five days but I doubt I've lost anymore weight. Hopefully by Friday when my babe comes back up I will have lost more weight (: My friend's throwing a banger on Friday I cant wait to get smashed haha. Did I mention I love to drink?
I have my meal all planned for Friday. Salsa chips and margaritas ! mmm (:

I wouldn't call it anorexia ..

I'm tired of being FAT

There was this little girl. She was very, very little. Then she found comfort in food!
she grew and grew until she wasn't very little anymore
She didn't even notice


I'm sixteen now. I don't want to be fat anymore. I wouldn't call it anorexia, but I won't be fat anymore. I don't want to be rail thin.. If anyone ever reads this I hope it won't be triggering
My biggest inspiration is Melissa Marie Green. She's so beautiful


She's a singer in the Millionaires. People made fun of her so bad so she decided to lose weight. this was her when people called her fat.




this is her now.
She's only lost about five pounds a year since 09'
I really don't want to wait that long..

Her sister Allison is just as beautiful she sings along with her in the Millionaires.




this is her now..



So anytime I'm hungry I just look up their music or pictures and I feel so much better.. I've lost six pounds this week. I still look discussing, but maybe soon I'll look better


Another person I look up too is vanna venom




She has he perfect body.

Hannie Dropkick






I'd give anything to be that pretty.
I won't be fat anymore.